Sometimes i feel like the most bipolar person, ever! During the train trip home, i divulged in some deep thought. Unusual, cause it usually happens in the shower. But i thought about how, i cannot allow people to have the amount of power over me, that i have been allowing them to have. How can i be that insecure! It is seriously, frustrating the power they have. But! That is changing...Yay, finally!
Just to change subject, rather quickly. I have made the assumption that facebook, really does make people too connected. Like this girl, who i think really is trying to hurt me. Keeps on putting status updates about where this girl -who made yr 12 hell- and my -i like to think is a- friend go each and every night. Seriously, it is getting real old and i am not sure i can handle listening to how you are all having a great time.
Especially now my 'friend' is treating my mum funny and refusing to give eye contact (you see i go by body language) and now she is doing the exact same thing to me, too. Seriously! I do not know what i have done? But what i have been discussing is that if i am to ever find out what i have done (which, i do not think i will and to be honest, i have done nothing!) it will be lies anyway. It feels as if i am walking on egg shells when i am around them. ARGH! Just thinking of them is totally frustrating and if i get this upset just talking about them, why the hell am i going tomorrow? Oh yeah, i wanna prove i am strong enough. Thing is i really do not think i am strong enough. Let us find out. I just hope i have the strength to make the right decision. *crosses fingers*
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